Day 1- June 1, 2020
I have to make changes in all areas of my life. I cannot keep the weight on. My knees are hurting, I have trouble breathing as I walk up and down the hill to the garden, I cannot run with the dog to keep him active. I do not like myself and haven't for quite a while. How can I make the changes I need to when I feel trapped, but the trapped feeling will continue until I make changes. There is irony. I am so tired of having to be strong for everyone and having to do everything for everyone (well, it feels like it often). I rarely have a time where I am not interrupted by dogs or kids (really my parents (in their 80's) and my daughters (in their 20's), or something. Living with individuals who are slowing down, having trouble remembering things, and serious health issues is hard. It seems like they know when I am going to do something for me. Changes are coming. First - I have to give up my Pepsi. That is m...